i promise i’d come back. just let me fix myself first, so that id be worthy of you.

he looks up the night sky, his eyes jumping from one star to the next. he had nowhere to go and he was aware of it. he was waiting for answers to fall from the heavens.

minutes ago he bares his soul to the one he values the most. he surrenders to the fact that what they had was finally over. he could not cry. there was no sorrow in his heart. instead, he felt great. he takes pride in knowing that he had loved someone unconditionally. he can’t believe it, his love was indeed pure. it was the most noble thing he has ever done in his life. ironically, he had to let go of her to realize it.

what do you know about getting hurt? you were the one who made a promise to come back. and for every day that you dont, you hurt me in magnitudes you’ve never imagined.

we’re losing a whole year of that life we’ve dreamt of. now everyday is a struggle to make myself better, for myself, and not for anyone else. not even for you. i’ve left all the shit behind. it still hurts. but i’m getting better. i’ve gotten used to the pain. so, this is life without you. and you know what, i have no regrets.

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