matagal ko nang gustong ipagsigawan to pero pinigil ko muna. hanggang naglakad na ko sa red carpet sa premiere night kagabi. oo sweetheart. buo na buhay ko. natupad na ang matagal ko ng pinaka-aasam, ang lumabas na extra sa pelikula.

wag nga lang kayo kukurap sa first 25 minutes ng pelikula. meron dun eksena sa opisina nila john lloyd at bea na pinapagalitan si bea ni kuya bodjie. magpapan ang camera sa angulo ni john lloyd, wag kayong kukurap, sisilip ako dun sa likod ng office divider, kitang-kita ang buhok ko at glasses. hindi nyo mamimiss.

taena. buong araw ako nag shooting nun at 7am ang call time tapos kasing tagal lang ng hatsing ang airtime ko. waw. pero ganun talaga ang buhay artista. no small actors. just small roles. very small roles. naks.

hindi dahil sa kasali ako sa cast ng pelikulang to, pero naexceed ang expectations ko dito. laglag baba ko kay bea alonzo, hands up hands down. panalo. ok honesty policy nakipag sex yung role nya dito. hehe. bilib ako sa screenplay at execution. walang corny lines, walang melodrama, lahat parang totoo. ang pinaka na badtrip ako, taena, kwento ng buhay ko to. subtle lahat ng eksena, bumabawi lang sa lalim ng hugot mula sa sarili mong kwento. parang pinapanood mo sarili mo at kahit papano, nahahanapan mo ng justifications ang mga nagawa mo nung iniwan ka. kahit anong reconciliation pa ang binigay nila sa ending, wala na, wasak na puso ko. binalik ang mga alaala na pilit ko ng tinago at binaon sa limot. taena. kelangan ko lang kasi panoorin kasi nominado akong best extra in a supporting role sa famas dahil sa 2 second performance ko dito. yung kaibigan kong si addy best extra in a lead role. mga 1 minute sya nakita eh. walang biro. may tumawag na sa kin.

one more chance. panoorin nyo to. iba hatak sa puso mo. tip lang, wag isama ang gf o bf na panakip butas lang. isama ang kaibigan na nandun nung nagsusuka ka sa baybayin ng puerto galera. o boracay. o metrowalk. o meatshop sa xavierville.

congrats sa star cinema. maraming salamat nga pala kay mico del rosario at cathy batallones, sa pagkakataong makalakad sa red carpet. maraming salamat din kay jp abellera sa pagkakataong makasama sa pelikula. mabuhay kayo!

part 2 ng matrix trilogy ang matrix revolutions at nakaka adik to dahil sa dialogue ni neo at ng source/architect. natatandaan nyo pa yun? yung mamang maputi ang buhok at mabilis magsalita na mababa ang boses? habang pinapanood ko sa sine yun naghahanap ako ng remote control pang rewind. he reminds me of my favorite teacher na biglang nagjoke at hindi ko napakinggan at bad trip ako kasi ako lang ang hindi nakakuha ng kwento. kaya kanina napadaan ako sa video city para i-rent ang revolutions at para makuha ko narin ang pinaka-aasam kong video city na payong. naka 5 beses na kong tig-aapat ang nirerenta, may prize na kong payong. hehe. sabi kasi ng pagasa mag handa na ng payong at jacket dahil la nina na. anyway, ill do you guys a favor, eto yung screenplay between the architect and neo:
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sometime in july i joined other volunteers of rocked philippines in a one day visit to the bilibid maximum security prison in muntinlupa. the situation is not the prison break type as we all might expect. the only difference between this facility and your favorite baranggay in manila is the absence of women and children.

i had the chance to talk to some of the inmates as i was tasked to facilitate in an impromptu creative writing workshop. their stories pierced my heart like a chrome-plated arrow. they tell the stories straight, their words pouring out like the way we describe the heat in midsummer afternoons. but i didnt take it against them. i think they say it that way because of the magnitude of its truth. and sugar coating them is useless. i told them they should begin writing as they have all the time in the world and that their stories should not stop with them. the real triumph of having spent a life behind bars is to tell their stories, so that others may learn from them. and i felt bad telling them that. i knew i didnt have the right to preach.

i left the facility confused.

later that night i realized that my confusion came from the fact that i went into the facility thinking i was better than anyone inside, only to find out that im not a bit different from them. there i was in a sea of people who envy me for the freedom that i have: to see my family, to have an education, a career, a chance to change the world. and yet i complain about these things that they value the most. im a prisoner of the choices i made for myself, afraid to take a step out from the comforts that i have built.

i should be taking risks because im free.

the shawshank redemption (1994). i highly recommend this movie to anyone who are afraid to push themselves to the end. set yourselves free from your limits. i read this in one of my exams in college: if youre not living on the edge, youre taking up too much space. grab a glass of water towards the end of this movie, when morgan freeman walks along the beach towards tim robbins. and prepare a list of things to do before the year ends.

clean your pad a day before you invite her for a movie marathon. and change your sheets. and make sure you have this movie in your list. this will guarantee at least a kiss from her.

first knight (1995), starring julia ormond, richard gere and sean connery. just a recap, this is an adaptation of the myth of king arthur and lancelot and guinevere. lancelot wins a weird contest and the prize is a kiss from queen guinevere. he refuses to kiss her in respect of her title. but deep inside, lady guinevere wants him badly. yep like (think angelica panganiban moaning) fabio grab me from behind and kiss me on my neck.. ugh.. a day before the big tongue exchange get her into a conversation about the best kissing scenes youve ever seen. then cite this movie at the top of your list. sit beside her on the floor while watching and when the scene comes (when they kiss under the rain in some forest) tell her that it’s the scene you’ve been raving about. then look at her in the eye and kiss her on the lips (not on the eye), then say, “but this is better.” alam ko medyo jologs na style but i guarantee you it works.

women would willingly act dumb, as long as they have an excuse, and watching richard gere all wet from the rain is one of them. we should take advantage of the oppurtunity.

ps. money back guarantee to. basta rent lang sa video city hehe

ihanda ang mga sarili. manood. makinig. (dahil nasa credits ako. hehe.)

mula kay gang.
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